aryan my stupid person ❤️

We(yes that's kasol,you remember you said ya toh kasol ab tere sath jaunga ya jaunga hi nahi,well ik you're not good with keeping promises but i went there without you,just to see why you loved that place so much)
When I wake up in the middle of the night feeling I'm still where I met you; when I find myself listening to your favourite music, when I can't go through a happy moment without dying to share it with yu,
when I keep looking back for no reason,
when I think I'd steal all the books from all the libraries in the world and give them to you.
when I stare at my favourite picture of yours for three straight fucking hours.when I try to move to a city nearby yours just to reduce the geographical distance between us in my head.
when I think of you so tenderly, when I kiss you in my dreams over and over and over again,
when I try to forget and let go,when i touch you in another world 
when I'm afraid of hurting you more than getting hurt myself,
when I stop listening to my friends and everyone around me,when I stay alone wishing nothing, when I wonder if you ate something,
if you had a good day at the office,if you're already trying to forget me, if people around you are making you feel less lonely.
When I remember the little intricacies of our friendship, when I hate myself for being so weak,

when I feel I don't want to love anyone after you, when I realise i met the worst version of you,

when I understand you blew it away, when I come across passages I want to share with you,

when I want to listen you sing 'wo dekhne me kaise sidhi shadi lagti' again.

when I say you're the most flawed person I've ever loved so
deeply,

when I keep listening to Frances saying 'this is your person in this life'
when I remember you're not around,

when I just wanted to feel once what it's like to be close to you,

when I say you're my family,

when I think you'd remember me gleefully listening to a Ghazal, when I feel a story has us connected in the most obscure

corners of life.
When I finally smile,

when I once again try to teach myself to keep hush about

everything,

when I go quiet, when I go really really quiet, when I do everything that I do, dearest, it is simply a way of asking, 'How are you?' I hope life has been easy on you, and if the world hurts you and breaks you, and I really hope it doesn't, then always remember I'm against the world; if you ever feel like coming back, you'll always be welcome here, this will always be your home; if you choose to walk away,

I hope there'd be many flowers, many many many flowers on your way.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FAVOURITE PERSON FOR THIS LIFE,I PROMISED YOU I'LL NEVER ABANDON YOU AND GOD KNOWS I KEEP MY PROMISES

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